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2011-06-28T22:15:00.001+08:00

2011-06-28T11:49:00.002+08:00

Went on vacation to relax and have some family reunion. Now, drowning in the midst of the mid-year-exam ocean. Wish me tons of luck.

2011-06-11T23:46:00.000+08:00

Today was my second day working at the toy museum. And again, I saw that distinct quality in kids that I've seeked to persist. I miss skinny jeans, fourskin plastic bags, juice magazines... and you.

2011-06-09T16:27:00.000+08:00

Today, in the art room, we went a little crazy. But that was downright fun!

2011-06-08T07:08:00.000+08:00

Where have I been these days?
I remember cycling from home to school. That was a whopping 9.38km according to mapmyrun.com.sg. I didn't cycle back hence my bicycle is still parked somewhere near sch and I hope that it's safe. I missed the good old cycling days. I even have a cycling soundtrack. Perhaps that's why I could go on for such a long distance even thought I've not cycled for a year.
Been cooking for myself the past few days. The painting's almost done. But why does it seem that it's taking forever to complete? Damn.
I hate this life right now. Coming home from school to an empty house. And school? It's nothing better. All that I apprehended is slithering into reality.

2011-06-01T21:01:00.000+08:00

God knew I needed a slack day like this. But I'm too tired to blog anything.

2011-05-31T21:10:00.000+08:00

I just lost another day. The amount of stress I'm having is overwhelming that pimples started to sprout on my forehead. And how can SATS be on a Sunday when it's SATs. It's this Saturday you dope! I'm having good ole phone calls back in my life again! Yay. And my friend just told me that last minute studying for SATS doesn't work cos that's what happened to him. How do I find the time to study when I'm trapped in this daily bondage in school to finish up my uob painting? Oh that damn uob painting. My best friend probably thinks I'm a pessimist by being so resentful when I actually asked for all this in the first place.

But scenery without solace is meaningless

2011-05-30T20:12:00.000+08:00

Here comes yet another couple.
And I ask myself if I miss the life there? What is there to remember anyway? Those kids, who'd all gotten into relationships with one another, how's life like for them? Lest I'm still a minute part of their memory, they might wonder where I've gone to...

"She disappeared?"
"Oh she left to do her UOB....

Screw UOB man.
Art is a lie whose secret ingredient is truth.

2011-05-28T09:00:00.000+08:00

This is Adele.
I hope I can be as good in art as she is in music one day.

2011-05-27T20:44:00.000+08:00

So I've decided, to make an effort to blog everyday regardless of how uneventful it can be. Today I watched Filmfest with friends and laughed alot. Such cheap thrills. Before that I sat for my GP paper and it went quite well. Yes! One paper down and a handful more to go!

Gotta go school tmr for geog make up lesson. Might go a bit earlier to paint my UOB -___-
I hope I don't forget to go to the Toy Museum on Sunday to work... Missing my first day on the job won't be good. And right now I'm gonna get some quality sleep to refresh myself for a power-packed weekend!

2010-01-01T00:48:00.003+08:00

I MISS MY TAGBOARD I MISS MY TAGBOARD! You won't know which one I'm talking about lol. It's the 2008 one. 2009 has been such a hectic year. Welcome 2010, no more bittersweet and happening secondary school life for me. Happy new year people. Watching countdown on tv, last year's sentosa countdown feels like yesterday.

Myself :D

2009-12-30T10:43:00.002+08:00

Watched Avatar ytd and received my belated birthday present! :D I love this hello kitty cushion!! Awesome camwhore buddy man! Now going to work! Byeeee!~

That's just how it is?

2009-12-25T21:28:00.005+08:00

Who will try to comfort me?
Time will always come for me. I better believe :)

Songs

2009-12-06T22:15:00.003+08:00

Would prefer the original but embedding was disabled so here's the remix.

2009-12-03T22:26:00.001+08:00

My blog is not dead!

2009-11-30T13:10:00.005+08:00

The weather is sucky, wet and humid these days. It's better to stay indoors or go swimming when it's not wet :) We love swimming!

After swimming , we went to Demsey. We ate burgers and fries at House, completed with strawberry cheesecake ice cream from Ben and Jerry's. We visited the groceries' and art gallery. I felt like a tourist O.O If there's one thing I'll write about, I'll write about Demsey Hill's happening yet sophisticated nightlife :)

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It may seem like a day just like any other day of the year. But I do feel different after officially turning 16. It's such a magical feeling! Thank you for spending time with me on my birthday!

Ytd, we went for Parachute Band's concert in Heart of God Church! Awesome performance and sermon from Pst Lia. This is a very precious photo!

and a very precious tshirt too!

2009-11-15T09:57:00.005+08:00

When I played Lumines Blocks, everytime i closed my eyes i see blocks. When I played Sushido, everytime i closed my eyes i see sushi. When i play Bejeweled Blitz, everytime i close my eyes i see jewels everywhere. There's a hell lot of things for me to learn. Before 'this' started, i was so excited. But who could I share my joy with? Now i'm in the midst of it, something I can't stop thinking of subconsciously, even when I'm playing bejeweled blitz and even if my eyes aren't closed. Images of incidences of 'this' keeps appearing in my head. Still, I'm ignorant. Ignorance is bliss~

2009-11-10T22:11:00.002+08:00

Higher chinese is overrrr. Only 1 more hour left to endure. fingers crossed~~
O lvls is finally ending. It's hectic, with the joy of screwing up some papers in between.
I have always decided to go JC next year but the package poly offers seems more promising for my future art career. Why am i thinking about all this when i still have one more paper left tmr... and i havent revised. Shall study tmr morning then. I sleep early!

2009-11-07T11:31:00.001+08:00

我想开了。即使没有取得最佳的成绩，我也不会气馁。因为过程还是最重要的。我从中学到了课本上所学不到的。

2009-11-05T14:11:00.002+08:00

Stupid drawing and painting. My prep works are pathetic. I didnt even write finish the artist statement. I keep having this sour feeling inside. I'll probably scream in the hall if i get A2 for art lor.

2009-11-01T10:18:00.001+08:00

awesome stuff!

2009-10-19T17:43:00.000+08:00

Don't you think that time passed really fast today?
Scary.

evenings

2009-10-11T18:41:00.004+08:00

boring sunday~~
i wake up late every sunday. after breakfast, i listen to the rick dees top 40. this has been a routine.
i'm losing momentum. i cant draw and paint like before and this is intimidating. i tried painting MJ, well at least i tried.

secondly, hi everyone, i've graduated. i feel all the same. this is rather blase. in the meantime, it sucks to lose composure and to run slower than before. it sucks to forget about a dream i once lived to.

forgive
forget
regret

2009-09-25T03:14:00.001+08:00

studied with stella sharyl and chunyi in school until school close. stephanie wasn't studying because she was eating. later we went out of school and played bridge. stephanie is the sacrificial metal because the mosquito kept biting her and never bite us haha. another fun-filled friday :)

2009-09-09T21:04:00.000+08:00

had an enjoyable afternoon at SMU :)

slapslapslap

2009-08-25T20:59:00.003+08:00

this is sooooo cute!

2009-08-23T09:54:00.001+08:00

thanks TRISHA for the apple!!!!! :DDDD

2009-08-22T21:29:00.001+08:00

On friday i went to school early in the morning to do my art prep board. i cant write neatly for nuts and by writing neatly, my hand hurts. After arranging my drawings for the whole day,i felt like rearranging them all over again ):

i think i'm reliant on caffine now because without coffee for breakfast, i feel weak the whole day ): this is so unhealthy!

two whole weaks passed like the wind. i have almost no impression of what happened at all. who wants to remember prelim anyway. i can remember that on friday i watched a movie with my ceg. we watched Fireproof, it's so awesome and touching.after that i went home and i watched magic shows. so facinating.i really hate studying and if only there such a thing like 'magic' o lvl, i really study very hard one lor.. alright but i'll still have a learn physics and math and chem so it makes no difference lol.

i'm very grateful for the people around me who care about me.i need to do more too. i need to care more about people too.

A drawing a ~~day~~saturday afternoon. i hope i'll do more drawings. it's so much more productive than wasting my time at home away.

the annual post

2009-08-09T21:52:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

2009-08-08T00:25:00.003+08:00

I didnt plan to draw today. But i found this book in the library - Street Sketchbook. And in the forework it writes "Drawing is the ultimate budget medium, you don't need huge resources or even a studio space to start making your mark. An image simply can be drawn with a pen on a cheap exercise book."

so i made use of whatever available...
Starbucks frap and Angela's Ashes ♥

2009-08-06T01:04:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhaaa (: finally something satisfying after a long unproductive day.

2009-07-11T00:30:00.006+08:00

i've completed two custom made blogskins by requests (:

i'm not planning to submit them to blogskins though. and here's my blogskin account which i seldom update .____. [link] and this is also my second blogskins account.

honestly, i feel damn refreshed! these few days have been restless, but i will perservere on! where's my blogskin for myself! ohno! i shan't rush! good things always take time (:

photoshop - my new best friend!
though my eyes are drained D:
but i really love designing!

today after chem remedial i went to the art room for fun. it's my second home! and i was talking to ariel, hahaha LICK MY SHORTS! and my PERTH PHOTOS omg! there're still somewhere inside my comp i didnt know where i saved them! so i finally found them and here's some (:

i'll upload more on FB too! i miss perth man!

-1.56am

2009-07-09T20:29:00.002+08:00

someone may be a stranger. but sometimes i have a feeling that i should know someone.
ballpoint pen and acrylic. i have to face the music for my actions.

2009-07-08T19:24:00.001+08:00

i got back my prelim 1 results already. my l1r5 is 18. i shall aim 11 for prelim 2. the durian pancake is sooooo nice! i want more durians! i love durians so much! i can even oil paint them!

Happy Pill!!
http://www.pizmogames.com/games/load.php?g=happypill this game is really addictive!

I've been reading this book lately, like fishing in an ideas stream. When asked how he was able to carve something as astonishingly beautiful as his statue of David, Michalengelo said "The statue's shape already exists in the marble. I simple chip away the excess stone."

:O

'Gracefully embrace ideas and go forward. When corks don't pop to the surface, we must consciously edit down thoughts and insights generated.'

i need to make a new blogskin for myself soon. i'm getting so bored of the current one.. have been using it for a year already. and i'm so lazy to put a tagboard -.- once my new blogskin is done, i'll put a tagboard haha (:

"There's impact in simplicity. Look at Japanese cuisine, Tiffany's jewelry, French films.

2009-07-04T02:51:00.008+08:00

Hi i'm xueni. i love basic shapes, designing blogskins and finding cool videos. i'm searching for pretty pillow cases to use for background. staying up late is really unhealthy.
xoxo

and i'm staying up late again for the second time.
i love funny thai commercials! :D

and here's some pleasant music for your ears (:

this reminds me of o2jam! so sad its gone now ):

-~~2:53am~~0.47am

2009-07-04T00:36:00.002+08:00

i'm always doing art and studying at the wrong time, why can't i just focus on one thing ):
perhaps i can just finish all the madness in one night. i want my sleepless night!

2009-07-01T22:04:00.002+08:00

today i went to sch for nothing mann.. waste my time! D: and the weather is so hot lor -.- so i went bishan library and asked trisha out to accompany me (: my table partner is so nice la! she lend me homework to do and even brought extra calculator me! so touched (: but i only did a bit of math then i didnt feel like doing anymore and read tintin instead. later we got hungry and went j8 to buy food.. and had to walk around to finish our food first before going back to the library. so i went to this place to see.. there used to be a public phone there that can be used to prank ppl.. dun need put in money also can call.. then when the person picks up the phone for about 2 seconds, the line will be cut off! i rmb sec 2 that time went there with a friend and spent the whole afternoon pranking people lor. sibei boliao and waste time but really fun listening to people's reactions! and now the phone is GONE! haha of course la dun think they will want people to play with public property so they removed it. and it's been so many years now.. i used to go bishan like everyday when i was sec 2.. so many things changed now.. the swing opposite gyps is gone cos they renovated the playground ): but there's circle line now :D brings me much convenience! hehe i hope more stations on the circle line can open soon (:

2009-06-26T21:43:00.001+08:00

With services from facebook and twitter, i've got less drive to blog these few days.

These days: lack of sleep, racing against time, coffeeshop coffee, biscuits, banana cake, feeling under the weather etc etc

Walking to school in a different route brings new discoveries (: Short cuts aint always the best choice haha. Now the road that i always jaywalk on is closed and i can't jaywalk anymore, leaving me without a choice. But i'm a good citizen now alright, i use the traffic light (: Taking the long route and walking past the small estate puts a smile on my face every morning. There's nice food and nice people, like a newspaper vendor who greets you every morning (:

Walking to school every morning under warm sun rays and drinking freshly brewed coffee has been the best part of the week (: now prelim 1's over. TGIF!

Trisha and I went to pp macs to celebrate ourselves (:

the picture on the left is what i drew and the picture on the right is what trisha drew. we gave each other our picture after that haha :D

2009-06-13T22:00:00.000+08:00

Today is the end of my lucky days. ):
Jesus keep me on my toes. Keep me composed.

2009-06-12T21:30:00.002+08:00

Listening to The Friday Night Boys <3

The past few weeks have been really happening. I flew a kite, stepped on dried leaves, and sat in the back of a truck.

The old man stood against the parapet, watching the cadets march with such passion. I was afraid of disrupting his chain of thoughts. And therefore took the long way down so as not to walk pass him.

2009-06-06T20:52:00.000+08:00

就是因为太卖力才会抽筋。

2009-06-01T00:21:00.000+08:00

后来，我们都晒黑了。

2009-05-13T22:55:00.003+08:00

music: Eisley - Trolley Wood

i was using the comp in the art room colouring my pictures when all of a sudden when i looked away my whole vision became blank and i had a splitting headache.
~~i really dislike studying.~~

my eyes hurt very badly ): i shall update more next time. stephanie loh made me really happy cos she plaited my hair (:

i want to know

2009-05-06T21:41:00.002+08:00

how i loved photoshop brushes.. how i could blogskin for hours.. how i got the flow of painting with oil.. how turpentine killed my lungs... where is my inspiration? why yakult stopped giving out free toys? have a place in the sky. so tell me, how are you?

coffee and china ink

2009-05-03T10:00:00.002+08:00

just trying my luck

2009-04-24T19:10:00.005+08:00

and i came across this video (:

2009-04-24T17:44:00.007+08:00

23/04/09 was a long long day. i love watching cedar track finals with stephanie, sharyl, chunyi, isis, hanis, natasha and morning joker! i love cedar track although i'm not from track! i love the houses across choa chu kang stadium! i love the west side of singapore! i love the sky that is blue-er than blue!

camera used: nikon coolpix s700

yay i love this photo! (:

unhappy kid

2009-04-21T20:11:00.001+08:00

the whole world was blur except for your face.
but why am i cheering you up when i'm not happy in the first place?

2009-04-17T23:51:00.004+08:00

the clouds in the sky were like porridge today.

i miss being a sophomore. i miss the feeling of warmth and security seniors had brought :/
ytd i went to the national library with trisha to draw and paint. we were really productive (: the books were awesome too!

2009-04-17T22:20:00.004+08:00

my mom showed me this video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ALQCkizx4UI

2009-04-15T16:42:00.004+08:00

school really sucks because i got scolded today for ponning cca too much. i changed to the totally wrong cca. but did i even have the choice? no cca points for me it seems. when i think about this i get really sad because i just think that it's totally unfair (it all started in about july/august in sec 2...) and it affected me for so long... i'm dead beat. i cant get into vj ): it scares me. is it too late now to fix this mess? i dun wanna think about it anymore... here's something that made me happy (:

awwwww... it's so adorableeee! ^w^
i love taobao.com. just spent more than 2 hours there when i'm supposed to be doing arrrrrrt(!!!!)
but it's all worthwhile because.... this will be mine in no time! :D i'm becoming very cheeeena now. i love cheena things la.

2009-04-12T14:04:00.006+08:00

Good Friday and the day after.

i loved brownies out of the oven, listening to pastor how's sermon, cycling at night, the dinner at the long table, giant pocky sticks, singpost level 9, open skies, tracy, acid wash shorts, cashmere sweaters, the designer shoe shop at wisma, andeline, sales, cafe cartel's free bread with olive oil, my dream guess wallet...

2009-04-09T20:56:00.006+08:00

08/04/09
at the national library.

~*~*~*~
after that i went to city plaza with chloe. arnolds chicken is so overated, hmph >____>

09/04/09
wires

thursday is art day. i took photos for my prep work on my way home from school (:

woah i wonder who did this. crystal was it you? i know u read my blog lor.

2009-04-06T20:58:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENDRA!
you're 16 already, so old! your new haircut makes you look so cute!

this is what i drew in school today. i have always been in a subconsious state.
today was a short but tiring day. i think i slept through my whole time in school. then waited for maryam to finish her bio remedial and we went swimming (: i swam for almost 20 laps.. tired sick... didnt want to go for tuition at all but no choice, so i was late -.-
i shall do my art now and be a good art student (:
there's no limits to stalking someone, i'm so proud of my stalking skills (:

2009-04-04T16:51:00.002+08:00

time is passing so fast, weeks are turning into days. i have only two months left to complete my o level art coursework. went to school this morning for art as usual. i'm listening to alot of owl city because it suits the theme for my art - relaxing. maybe i can get something out of the the lyrics and apply on my art too. i've just finished watching slumdog millionaire online. it's a saturday afternoon, i'm gruntled (:

2009-03-26T21:41:00.003+08:00

having to sneeze 34095739475 times a day and a terribly blocked nose sucks D:

but it's lucky to have things coming back to my head again :)

here's a list of books that i want to read again:
1)Alice in Wonderland by Lewis Caroll
2)The whole incident with Kiffo and the Pit bull
3)Fly on the wall by E.Lockhart
4)Clockwork by Phillip Pullman
5)The Supernaturalist by Eoin Colfer

here's a list of movies that i want to watch again:
1)Quill
2)Hinokio
3)Artificial Intelligence
4)Spirited Away
5)Tekkon Kinkreet
and more touching japanese movies!

my physical condition sucks, so i've been chasing memories.

like the sunset once in a while.

like cheerful churchy friends

like wonderful art buddy

like a small store that turned out to be artsy.

2009-03-25T23:27:00.000+08:00

because things always come and go. certain things in my head are faint. but they're memories that i seek to persist. because i want to remember every part of my life. flashbacks have never been so vivid and refreshing. certain parts of books that i've read in the past popped up in my head randomly. no matter how hard i thought i could not recall the title of the book. however the events in it seemed so clear and like deja vu. there are movies too, that i have just a faint memory of. i've been thinking of this often. the girl who likes drawing with charcoal turned into a fly. and something else too. i've been thinking of the japanese milk delivery boy.

TGIF!

2009-03-06T23:30:00.006+08:00

exchanging specs and weird smiles. i love you guys dearly! :D

2009-02-25T22:30:00.002+08:00

It's true that i get jealous of her sometimes. she's got the friends, cars and a big house. but i realised that i didn't know her well enough. most of her friends couldn't be true friends. and the house is big, but filled with emptiness and indifference. live your life to the fullest dude, i know you can pull through this (: it has been great acquainting you. thanks for all the laughter and fun. but sometimes you do show signs of hypocrisy, yes i hate to admit it. you are the girl that i hate and love (as a friend of course), i wish you luck.

tekkonkinkreet!

2009-02-03T21:50:00.001+08:00

the sky could fall tonight.
i died in your arms tonight.
we reached the place where the moon smiles
and young boys can fly.
the old man took a walk under the stars.

2009-02-01T22:27:00.003+08:00

my art class buddies add colours to sullen evenings (: thank God for this friendship.

i just finished watching paprika on http://www.animecrazy.net/paprika . whoa the japanese doll is freakky shitz! but the overall story is good. go watch it!

2009-01-27T19:30:00.004+08:00

Hello C, i have been going out with you without fail these days (: from pasir ris chalet to hougang swing to little india, we were like superglue! not many shops opened today and town was more of a deserted tourist attraction rather than a shopping district. while little india was a totally different story altogether. we got our eyebrows trimmed and did henna hand paintings. since it was too expensive for the shopowner to paint my hand and i wanted to paint my own design, i grabbed the dye from her and painted my arm myself. just 40 cents (: what a budget day i had. i had picnic with C in the morning in front of punggol ghosthouse and didnt eat anything until dinner. after that we stayed in the cotton on dressing room and camwhored for hours! let's go eat rochor tauhuay someday yea (:

friday night

before

after

transcendence

2009-01-22T21:28:00.004+08:00

Watching You
mixed media on laser cut wood 13"x16"
'Clowns!' @ Corey Helford Gallery
2008

i'm addicted to audrey kawasaki's works! and obsessed with doodling big-eyed dolls with long necks during lessons. nyjc has really impressive a level artworks (: from intrinsic qualities to ephemeral sunsets.

my fears.

fear of bumping into clean glass walls
fear of misplacing my things
fear of sharp edges
fear of being wrapped by plastic sheets
fear of having amnesia
fear of mental blocks!

i want to get that elephant out of my head!

transcendence

2009-01-22T21:28:00.001+08:00

2009-01-20T22:10:00.004+08:00

I've been watching little nyonya on mio tv which i got for free since ytd(: and chionged 18 episodes in a day! no surprises cos i could fast-forward and pause whenever i liked (: will finish watching the whole thing soon! watching it with an empty stomach made me so hungry too! here's what i bought on my way home just now!

hungry? that was my dinner. sinful!! i bought 8 cakes for just $2 which is really worthy!

this is trisha, my chionging-art buddy who stays back with me after school till dusk! we drink bubble tea and walk towards potong pasir mrt station everyday without fail :D
finally finished my art for CA, what a sense of relief.

2009-01-14T20:21:00.001+08:00

the good life of watching funny thai commercials and not doing homework (:

dream machine

2009-01-05T23:37:00.002+08:00

i'm living, breathing and eating oil paint now. even literally.
that's why it rained gumballs you see ;)

2009-01-04T01:40:00.002+08:00

new phone. new specs. new shoes. dream come true!!
and kendra lent me her guitar! wheeee :D
i'm gonna bake orange-shaped-cookies on CNY! haha i love my life (:

Home. Now that I'm coming home,

2009-01-01T13:49:00.002+08:00

WOOHOO! i'm back from the asia's grooviest party! what a fabulous new year's eve. although i can barely remember much now. sadly my phone died on too much water and foam. before that was a poolish, decemberish night. we sat on the sand and everything just disappeared into oblivion.

i'm a happy kid now. i got my juice magazine (:

i miss you most on winter mornings

2008-12-25T21:33:00.003+08:00

instant noodles and oil paint.

granny smith's and royal gala. i lk pntng ppls wth il pnt nd typng wtht vwls.

something from The Book Thief,
"From Saint Niklaus," Papa said, but the girl was not fooled.

we'll be rolling on carpet grass

2008-12-19T13:49:00.004+08:00

waking up to a new song every morning is bemusing. it's like dejavu. followed by a repertoire of errands. i'm a casualty now (it took me so long to spell it), well not exactly. imagine me stuck in bed with a book and the radio on. but seriously, 'The Book Thief' is the best book ever (at least for now). "no one's urine smells as good a s your own" :P

photos from ages ago when i went rock climbing with felicia loo (since i have nothing else to post). cant wait to go rock climbing again! pray for a speedy speedy recovery for me!

HELLO (i'm back from)PERTH!

2008-12-09T21:53:00.007+08:00

the grass is always greener on the other side.

looks like a painting right? but it's not!

nougat factory!

ariel!

here are some photos i took with my phone camera. they're easier to upload ^^ it's late now i'll upload the rest next time.

2008-11-27T10:50:00.002+08:00

CANT WAIT FOR THIS!

method

2008-11-26T23:32:00.001+08:00

i actually blogged 3 times a row in less than an hour. but i changed the date of the posts to telly with the events that happened. maybe i need to post even more to compensate for the lack of updates. cos on 18/11/08, sharyl and chunyi came to my house! they bought games for me! :D how sweet of them! we had a really fun afternoon. and i want to say a BIG thank you to them :D it's so rare that i get to play a board game or card game with friends! i want to play mastermind too! primary school memories are haunting.. XD

pollyna suggested to go to the art museum today so cherie, wanting, kendra, pollyna and me went to sam. nothing much there but 8Q rocks! apart from the friendly artworks, there was also video games for us to play! i love gameboy advance! we even played bowling on nintendo wii!

this has nothing to with the museum, just that ytd i tried so hard to draw cherie on a serviette(finally knew how to spell) and here's finally a decent one XD

when i was young i used to write in my journal... "i love the chicken rice at waterloo street!"
and many years later, i found myself back in the same place again! i think the chicken rice havent changed, even the chilli sause still tasted the same!

what a great day today. my visual, physical and makan needs were thoroughly satisfied. there half an hour left and my greedy demands will probably be materialism like a new phone, a laptop, gameboy advance etc etc... but after tonight i might not want them anymore. just tools. i want strawberry cheesecake icecream.

2008-11-24T23:06:00.001+08:00

I LOVE CASSANDRA'S MAGNIFYING GLASS SPECS :D

gabby (:

cass and i and her specs :D

cut

2008-11-23T21:35:00.003+08:00

the cedar musical has ended and i really miss the experience of helping out and being in the backstage crew!

LISA AND FONGWA: D
and of course there are so many more photos! we just went around taking photos with whoever's camera LOL.
Thank God for this wonderful experience (: and the new friends i've made! now what's left is a piece of marmalade cloud (:

2008-11-19T16:19:00.004+08:00

went to see singapore biennale with my mom sometime last week (:
here are the photos of south beach development:

still got photos taken at city hall that i havent upload :/ ahahas xD

2008-11-12T23:40:00.001+08:00

today is a day of blisters, sweat and fun (:
still waiting for felicia lulu to send me the pictures...

life is full of twist and turns, just like daytona.

2008-11-10T11:07:00.005+08:00

i'm listening to old anime and panic songs now from my mp3 that i havent updated since last year. old songs sounds good after being untouched for sometime (: and there's even the spiderpig song and songs by a-teens!

i also found some old photos and filmstrips in the storeroom! isnt listening to old songs and looking at old photographs the perfect thing to do on a rainy monday morning?

I went to chruch tgt with wanyi last friday! she's my best friend in primary 1 and we're still in contact now! amazing right :D and she's still so chio and skinny...

Thank God for such a wonderful powerpacked week! It's enjoyable and yet fruitful (: i'm hoping for the rain to stop and more sunshine so that i can go and look at the singapore biennale with kendra. but somehow i want the sound and smell of the rain that harmonises with this feeling of melancholy to last...

2008-11-06T10:36:00.001+08:00

Nick Vujicic came to my church! and it was truly inspiring! there isnt much things that are impossible in this world right? In Matthew 14:22, Jesus walks on water and called his disciples to do the same. but Peter was afraid when he saw the wind and began to sink. Just like how when we were determined to do something but retreated due to lack of faith. As Nick Vujicic said, "fear is the greatest disability", let's all overcome our fears to recieve faith by God's grace and discover the secret in life that God has planned for us (:

2008-10-24T16:53:00.002+08:00

no school today. so i stayed at home, tidied my room and drew some pictures. ytd could have been the saddest day of my life, if i havent went to church after school. school doesnt seem like school anymore with a teacher who writes such demoralising comments about you. this world is really unfair ):

I prayed a little longer in church. I won't fake a smile, but I'll rejoice in the Lord.

picture perfect

2008-10-20T20:44:00.006+08:00

today i went for an excursion! at acjc! there was an asean talk there. it's my first time going to acjc, although i've always wanted to go acjc. well that's before i moved house. nice talk from the guest of honor and great performances. but most importantly, after the programme i took bus 166 and was finally able to go to the place.

not that splendid photography skills. i was rather nervous and couldnt hold back the excitement! what a fulfilling sense of home (: but still i had to train all the way from harbourfront to punggol -.-

no more cables cars,
shooting stars,
the familiar route home.
just aeroplanes
flying low,
and the free smell of rain.

2008-10-17T20:11:00.002+08:00

ponned school today for good. went hougang to fix my bike. i love cycling long distance after the rain. the air is so fresh!

happiness

2008-10-16T23:23:00.005+08:00

we are the picture hanging on the wall :D

went to school early in the morning to help in the musical although there's no sch today. but it's all worthwhile cos i not only got cip hours from doing slack work but also went bugis with maryam after that :D bras basah, national library and macs (: spend the whole afternoon reading cricket magazines and art books! another dream come true (:

it's a small small small world

2008-10-14T22:08:00.006+08:00

Dear God, why can some people change so much that they totally became another person? have they been pretending all this while?

school was a waste of time today. after school i signed up with felicia for rock climbing! hope there can be spaces for us! went for cca and i need to take part in this competition here -> http://www.evideo.edu.sg/sdma
no idea on what to do siaaa! but really need to think of something, even if i'm doing alone.. or i wont get any cca points lor -.-
i'll go for an afternoon bus ride, with the sunlight shining against my eyelids. all i can see will be shades of red. hopefully that can give me enough inspiration.
but still, people pro at making videos please help!

i'm now halfway thru a french movie called amelie. it's nc16 but can be found all over youtube lor! love the pictures, music, amelie's clothes and everything there (:
here's a really touching video, must watch!

Day #2

2008-10-13T23:09:00.004+08:00

a design a day (:
a day without a design will not be called a day. made in adobe photoshop cs3.

CRYSTAL JADE todaaay with pollyna, abigale, alvin and clara! food glorios food! what a dream come true (: i'm a posh kid now :D i felt so happy eating good food after so many days without proper meals. and i really ate until superrr full! went church to do maintainance after eating. what a perfect time to do housework after eating so much (:

i shall go sleep now and not do my homework >.>

2008-10-10T20:12:00.003+08:00

walks pass this place twice almost everyday. walking with bread in one hand and art file in the other covering face from the bright sunlight. mom doesnt care about me anymore ): i havent eaten a meal for 3 days. these few days have just been merely surviving on buns, just buns. i miss family dinners at crystal jade.

Day #1

2008-10-09T23:11:00.003+08:00

drew that during double chinese (!!!) on my chinese homework and added texture to it using photoshop. honsestly speaking i didnt follow that schedule at all. and it's only once in a blue moon that i'm actually willing to sit down and plan my day.

got back more results today. my physics is hopelessss. yea the teacher thinks so too. but well, i wont go far with this low morale... need to work haaaard! computers are such distractions. ahahas you see the irony here! chinese Os are in 3 weeks time. just how far can i go? my homework is still untouched :/ i really need alot of planning! today shall be called Day #1 as it is the start of my planning days... hopefully everyday will be a well-planned day from now (:

anyway i just made a new blogskin and i'm using it now :D the background image is actually what i did for my art for my mid years. what a good use of recycling of ideas ^^i'm definitely going to make skins like siao after chinese o levels :D

the clouds in the sky this morning are pink (: i go do my chinese homework now bye!

2008-10-08T17:00:00.003+08:00

the heavy rain just stopped. hope it's the same for my heavy mood. it's sucks to have bad results.

cycled home. mom's out. i sat down and watched tv. guess what, i saw my primary school friend on tv! that was waaaaaaaay back when she's still in primary school! i wish i'm still in primary school.

nostalgic illustrations and poems makes me really happy (: (: (: sometimes i wish i've taken literature. but art is not that bad.. i just have to move myself up to a whole new level.. such that i can paint pictures like those in children's books! children's book illustrators must really love their job..

cricket magazines....

2008-07-12T21:27:00.004+08:00

i missed blogger so i decided to blog here again [:
maybe i should blog on lj about the happening things of the day and dump my musings here.

last night i had this weird dream that kept me so intact with it that more than 10 alarm rings didnt wake me up. i dreamt that i'm still staying in my old house and i took bus 61 home after school. i was taking it with many people including classmates and my primary school friends. the rest of the dream seemed blurry but the weirdest part of the dream is that i was writing this book on the bus 61, i was writing my very own book and i seemed very happy to write a book and had lots of inspiration and i couldnt stop writing. this is so weird. imagine me writing a book, i'll probably write about my nicest memories of my old house and those things that i fantasize about before i sleep. i dont like getting sentimental about my past but it cant be helped. i'm really starting to detest this place for all the inconvenience and loneliness it has brought me. if i havent moved to this place i'm sure my life wont be like this. maybe i should really write down all my memories from the start to now. they're just too good that sometimes i really wish i can live in that time of my life forever and never grow up. i'll give my 'book' a kickstart now, it's like having a time machine. i'm going back to the time when i had bangs.

so I throw my life upon all You are

2008-06-05T23:54:00.003+08:00

sometimes we can be really irritated and bothered by small mishaps that happened to us, like a bad haircut. But think again, think of those people who are suffering from much greater unavoidable disasters, do we even qualify to compare ourselves with them?

Dear Heavenly Father,
the sichuan earthquake has left so many children homeless. i pray for them Lord that you will bless them that they will grow up strong. may they continue perusing their studies and have a home to stay. i pray that they will get physical and emotional support from the people around them and that their injuries will be healed.
Amen.

often when we lose or bypass something, then we start to cherish them and go all sentimental. places. people. they all mark the stages of life we've been through. once we experienced them, it's hard to forget them. no matter who or where, after being quarantined from them for quite sometime, we'll naturally start to miss them.

i really miss them. too much. at a point of my life they showed me different sides of life, showered me with both excitement and disappointment. I matured and grew from this bittersweet experience. but in the end, i still chose to leave them. why? because i cant stay there with them forever. even the bird will fly out of its cage someday. even though there's food and refuge in the cage, but the discoveries from the outside world are endless! i hope i made the right choice but taking this risk. i will have to be patient to wait for my answer. it's either way. the bird will get to spread its wings while soaring high in the sky, or get shot down by the hunter while flying. either way.

‘Cause I know You gave it all for me,
And when all else fades,
My soul will dance with You,
Where the love lasts forever.

2008-05-16T19:18:00.003+08:00

cos i dun want to blog here anymore.
http://paperwindmill.livejournal.com/

2008-05-16T19:18:00.001+08:00

cos i dun want to blog here anymore.
http://paperwindmill.livejournal.com/

2008-05-07T10:47:00.002+08:00

I LOVE AMATH AND COORDINATE GEOMETRY :D

(sometimes i feel like switching to lj, then i will be able to lock my some of my posts. cos there are times that i really want to blog about something but there's this insecurity in me that doesn't want to public to see it.. haiis)

Last night i had a dream, that we went to disneyland

2008-05-02T21:23:00.003+08:00

It's been a long tiring day.
last night i had a dream. but i didn't go to disneyland. last night is one of the few nights when i actually cry myself to sleep. i kept thinking about the past although i knew i shouldn't. i couldn't help it. i tried to keep myself engrossed in other things instead of thinking about all the bad memories. but it didn't help, those tears just flowed down relentlessly. then i prayed real hard. i really want to train or i'll just rot.

Beautiful in blue

2008-04-25T20:12:00.007+08:00

thanks for all the entertainment on the best friday of my cedar life this year (: the school's toilet mirrors certainly need cleaning.
I LOVE SISI, SINAH AND SIAOLAH! :D

friday is yellow socks day (:

2008-04-25T19:02:00.004+08:00

wearing yellow socks to school on friday has officially became a weekly routine (: i have been breaking the rules by doing this for quite sometime but the teachers and prefects have been very much oblivious hurhur (:

in memory of my shoes...

this is one of them. the other is just as tattered D: this pair of converse double tongue has been with me since the mid sec 1. i've been wearing them to sch almost everyday but i did not flip up the tongue, not even once. i've trained in these shoes before. ran 2.4 in them and even walked in the rain with. but now all those things cant be done with these shoes anymore. they've reached their lifespan. i can't climb up the stairs properly in these shoes let alone run in them. i can even see my yellow socks thru the hole. RIP my converse double tongue. i don't think i will ever wear these shoes out anymore but i definitely will not throw them away. i will keep them in a heart-shaped box, sweet child o'mine (:

broken promise ring

2008-04-22T19:53:00.003+08:00

It's been a year since i went for trainings and felt the of experience of severe fatigue, when i really put in all my energy till there's none left. yesterday was the ultimate test for my perseverance. i had to run without stopping till i reach the finish line. i was obviously very unprepared. i envy my past. when my legs can totally carry me to wherever i wanted to. a year has gone and my body's deformed. before running, i thought of this dream of mine long ago when i was still a kid. i dreamt that i was being chased, and ran and ran, till i overtook gravity. my legs began to lift up gradually, I'm running in midair. i like the feeling inside me when i think about this dream. it's just nonsensical childlikeness. this dream stayed with me throughout the whole time i ran. how i wished, one of my steps could just lift me upwards above the hard concrete ground. of course, my wish never came true. but at least it stayed with me and motivated me till the very end, for i chose to believe in the unbelievable.

Crawling Towards The Sun

2008-04-20T13:53:00.004+08:00

JUNO MAKES ME WANT TO PAINT MY WALLS :D It's the perfect movie to watch on a typical lazy sunday afternoon :DDD

2008-04-14T19:32:00.005+08:00

HELLO BEAUTIFUL!
i officially opened my tagboard today and it's dedicated to youu! hahaha :D yea i know you're reading this (= must come tag often or i'll peel you! teehee i spell your name backwards! - SISI xDD